Love
never gives up,
never loses faith,
is always hopeful,
and,
of course,
endures through
every circumstance.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Been through some stuff as usual. This is life. And something happened on Friday that affected me for a while - 1 night. This is what happened:
It’s rather unbelievable. About 1½ months ago, the guy who said he wants to focus on studies and not wanting to be attached is now attached. That guy is so-and-so. Like what Miss Zhang said, people won’t be so open about their love life in front of everyone. She does have a point there. Well, it’s just this girlfriend of his doesn’t look very fantastic and they look rather incompatible. Initially I was sad because he didn’t keep his word and this girlfriend of his is far from my imagination. I thought he is interested in so-and-so. Then I consoled myself since so-and-so is so much more gorgeous in appearance and he did not choose her. Instead he chose someone of my stature. I thought he deserve better. I reflected and thought this may be exactly how he felt when I was with someone at that time. And for a short period of time on Friday night, I was thinking some negative thoughts. They behaved rather intimately in front of the people who were taking the same bus as them. That someone and I don’t even behave in such a way. All right enough of the criticism. I almost couldn’t take it but I was stuck in the bus with them all. I froze so as to speak. The moment I alight the bus is the moment that shows it is affecting me. I told myself I must be able to take it and so I pretended everything’s normal. It’s not easy. I mean, where the hell did this girl appear from? She is charismatic and outgoing and loud. Yes, he needs someone like that. I can identify with him. Afterall, people like us need people who are louder than us because by nature of personality we are quieter. And so, I was having some negative thoughts. I wanted to reach church service on the dot. Wanted to sing it all out at party world with Bao Qing. But anyway it didn't happen. I was showering and felt Him speaking to me. "Well, there's someone better. Trust Me about it. Be positive." I was thinking I should be positive and shift my focus on people who click with me instead of me trying to click with those who speak a totally different language than I am. Although I tried to blend in, I just couldn't. Anyway sometimes when I saw certain stuff, I told myself I must be able to take it. 要撑得住气。I must not be distracted from whatever negative things that is happening. I must focus on positive things and the growth of the cell and connect group. It's not worth it to neglect the growth God is giving us and I gotta cherish it. Especially growth is here right here right now. Labourers are few but the harvest is plentiful. I cannot miss this moment.
Been attending Japanese language class for 6 weeks now. It's been a fun time! かわばた せんせい かわい です。Haha. All thanks to Beatrice's recommendation! I've learnt how to introduce myself, where I live, which nationality I am, ask other's age, give my reply, jap names of different objects, where I worked, ask the same of others. I've enjoyed myself every class. Can't wait to attend the next class.
はじめいまして。
わたし は Xue'er です。
どうぞようるしく おねがいします。
おなまえわ。
わたし は シンガポル じん です。
えんぴつ = pencil
ノート =notebook
いす =chair
つくえ =desk
かばん =bag
しんぶん =newspaper
Japanese language is a very interesting language. Who knows? It may come in handy one day!
It sure feels good to let off some steam and share the good stuff with friends on blog! Please pray for us if you happen to see this. I'll be meeting Jie Ying later. Pray for me that the anointing will be upon me when I speak to her and able to meet her needs. Pray that she will have an open heart and she will not take the past bad experience to heart.
I read a verse today and felt that it speaks to me.
Ecclesiates 3:13
"And also that every man should eat and drink, and enjoy the good of all his labour, it is the gift of God."
02:42
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Hey YOZ!!! I'm back! Having gone through exciting, emotional time last year from where I end off. Yupz. Many things happened. Especially at work and in my personal life. Implemented quite a number of things at work, some rough patches with the colleagues because of my weaknesses. Finally i would say that i'm all right with most of them except one now. As for my personal life... i'm currently attached. Been through emotional periods and even now... Things are not blooming now. I've come to a stand still. Tired of waiting. Tired of going nowhere. Tired of just pursuing instead of being pursued. Probably i asked for it. Warnings have been given but somehow i ignored it, i guess. I shouldn't be surprised at this. Not really looking forward to anything much regarding this. Sad eh... haha. i shall see what'll happen. Especially this week. Hopefully it's still not too late to be reconciled. Not too late for restoration. Not too late to move on together as a couple.
21:13
Monday, September 10, 2007
today's been a crappy day. So stressed up! smsed my good friend about it. it's a time of stretching capacity and efficiency. A time not to compromise and be lazy. There's a time for everything and this is the time for further training. It's better to make all the mistakes now as a technician than to make the same mistakes as a higher authority. It's even worse. Will do my best to cope and overcome this obstacle. And this is just a temporary one! Gotta pray for grace.
"His grace is sufficient for me and His strength is made perfect in my weakness."
21:31
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
Missed band life in NPCB. Those were fun days. Now in orchestra ministry. Had high expectations in the beginning but now, I just want to motivate myself to improve on my playing. It can happen if i discipline myself to practise. Shall not type the complaining. Want to do away with that attitude. Haha... Learn to laugh at the situation and find strength to get going. Complaining does not help. ^^
21:08
Hey everybody! I'm back! Woohoo~ All thanks to Vodafone! " )
Just read my best friend's blog. He hasn't been updating his. In camp and no internet. Well.. I've been working for a year plus now. Life's great with problems for me to solve. Lol. Many things have been happening since i left the blog and now all covered with cobwebs. Family, work, relationships, interest, etc. Just find myself in the constant change and challenge of my character and values. Guess i've changed quite a lot. As I was saying, read my best friend's blog. Reflected for a moment that I'm negative in outlook in life in a way (in the process of change from weeks ago). Positive perspective definitely make our lives a happy one. I question myself about the way I live my life. I like to work. Forget everything else when I'm working. Somehow like the drive of it. Makes me feel alive and kicking. Solving problems at work is a little challenging. Afterall i'm not so experienced, so to be able to solve it is a fulfilling thing! Haha.
Due to the things that's been happening, I decided to enlarge my social circle of friends. Realized I'm better at lame jokes now. Spending time with friends, helping them in their life and be a blessing to them.
Been reading Joyce Meyer's The Confident Woman. It's a GREAT BOOK i would recommend to other ladies out there.
Say what you want to live with.
Speak words to yourself that you want to live with. Negative words create a negative atmosphere you're living in. Harsh words create harsh atmosphere. Loving words create loving atmosphere. Positive words create positive atmosphere. All of this will translate itself into reality.
20:31
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Life seems quite harsh as reality hits me these past week. Problems in the past surface up again and this time round, it's quite serious. I felt that I do not have much choice but to oblige. I keep trusting and confessing that the Lord is my supplier and He is my help in time of need. All the more I need His strength, His wisdom and understanding, and to know His ways. I thought I'm pretty strong but sometimes I do break down once in a while. In the midst of all the trouble and deep valley times, I learned more things. I thought about some business ideas and have a partner too! Talking about that, I gotta do some online searching. I miss the times where I can go online at home. Seems that I missed out quite a bit on people's lives. In this present day, we've to acknowledge the fact that Internet is a common tool we use to build relationships. Anyway, Li Fang and I attended BBG meeting on Thursday by Pastor Casey Treat. It IS a great WORD in the SEASON for both of us. "Building new relationships will take you to the next level" is the particular word for me. The title of his message is Removing Limitations. As I thought about some stuff in my life- what I want to achieve, what's my current situation and self-confidence does make me reflect about myself and the different possibilities of it. You know... IF there's no TIME CONSTRAINT, FINANCIAL CONSTRAINT and FEAR, what would you do? That sounds like heaven, ain't it? Haha~
I went back to the orchestra on Wednesday. Felt quite burdened about it as my friend shared with me some stuff. It's the first time we had dinner together and we shared things we're going through in our lives. God is good. So I decided I want to play a part in shaping the orchestra. For a start, I will go to Esplanade Library to search for chorales for orchestra. It's something good to start with! Pray that it works!
Well, I'm going to have some time for myself now. Going for haircut and shopping for my D & D dress with the little time that I have.
12:37
Friday, March 16, 2007
Many things happened since the day i left off from the last blog post. I feel like such a loser now. Things not really going well and I feel so helpless about some stuff. Yea... Some things I tried to do but there's nothing. Some stuff were great but now gone. There's nothing much left. Sometimes the smile is gone too. Pretty sad huh... I gotta buck up!!! Need to have some hope and grow in greater confidence. Fill you in some time soon.
"Yea though I walk through the valleys of the shadow of death I shall fear no evil. For Your rod and Your staff they comfort me."
"Do not cast away your confidence for it shall bring you great reward."
"The joy of the Lord is my strength."
18:39
Monday, August 28, 2006
LIFE'S GREAT!
Feeling much much more better le.. enjoy working now though it's still super busy! just realized that my creativity juice is decreasing ever since i "retire" from band. haha... guess i nida do something about aesthetics area of my life! probably go watch Forbidden City or something.. Overall life's SIMPLY GREAT! ^^
P/S: Looking forward to 1st Sep - Annual Leave!!
13:37
Sheryl Eunice Xia Xue'er
created on 22/01/1985
Working in Biopolis
Serving in a great CG e343!
orchestra ministry!
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